Sleepwalking

He finds himself watching

Eyes never still

Flicking between the solid masses
And air so fine
He believes he could fall through
Without leaving the faintest trace

A spark in hand
Perhaps the only indication
That there is life present on the edge

A sign

The beacon for would be rescuers

Beneath the weight of all that is us

I have loved you past
The moment
We should have
Ceased to be.

Off
And on into the great
Unknown.

Where all that we were
Is weighted
By millstones to carry us
Down
Or stretch far beyond the
Point of breaking.

And how I have broken
Whilst you have never done
Anything other than
Love my entirety.

Damaging Awkwardness

Some days
In your company
I feel alone

Like we are no longer us

Two beings who falter
Fail to connect

Who struggle to find
The time where we were
Comfortable

Alive

Pushing the world forward
With the momentum of
Our unity

Instead you slip
From my hold

Implant the distance
To keep you
A fingertip out of reach
And stretch the binds
Of our love.

Changing Under the Full Moon

There is something we should say
About her

Before you start

Instead we stand in the doorway
Hovering
Unsure of the meaning
You will weave into our words

Afraid of the battered mind
Who will drag herself back to us
Only when she has clawed out
Your innards
And left you disembowelled

Her self remorse unbridled

Yet she will have loved you
And been loved

Surely every one in life deserves that chance?

Skirmish

No white flag
To signal our surrender,
When our will is strong
And made to be inflexible,
When on the parapet we stand,
Sure footed and fixed.

A permanent fixture in time.

Even if beneath us
the walls crumble and fall away.

No surrender.

Tempest

We fought hell and high water
Even without waterproofs or waders
And got thoroughly soaked to the bone
For our efforts

Not to say that it wasn’t worth it

Still it was cold
Or hot
In equal measures

And we were warriors through and through
Suitable hero’s of the hour
Lifted to the sky in worship

But we can’t fight this.

The moment before dawn

When I wake
I watch you in your silent slumber

And wonder

Are your dreams where you find
Sanctuary or
Are you brought down to your knees
A million times over

Punished for your failings

Like there is no definite distinction between
Night and day

I watch you in sleep
As I watch you in life

And can’t help the feeling
That I
Failed to protect you.